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    Thoughts on Impending Fatherhood


    Created on Tuesday, August 10, 2010        Bookmark and Share

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    I know that I've touched on this before but I've been reluctant to touch on my impending fatherhood here. I think that might might be easy to misconstrue this as being something more than it is. Quite frankly, I haven't always had my head around the whole thing. I'm all kinds of nervous/excited/scared/hopeful. I hate to say it but I'm also tired of talking about it. People mean well but I think they assume that it is something that you want to talk about. It isn't that I am against it - there is just nothing to talk about. I've heard everyone else's stories (oh boy have I) and I know that it will be a wonderful/hard/rewarding/joyous thing.

    So the big event is scheduled for three weeks from now but it really could be any day. Where am I at? A pretty good place. I was never really at a bad place - I have never had a doubt that I could do this and that it will be the best thing that ever happened to me. Having said that, I think something that happened the other night really gave me the last push that I really needed.

    I had a dream. I won't pretend to remember everything exactly how it happened (I've always been awful at remember dreams once I've been awake for more than two minutes) but that isn't important. I had a glimpse of a young child looking up at me and smiling. I had an image of the same child a couple of years later, looking back at me through a window on a school bus. I had a vision of playing catch with a teenage boy. I remember passing a young man a beer (lets call a spade a spade here - it might still have been a teenage boy).

    Once again, the details are unimportant - there were others that included family vacations and the like. I think it was easy to see the negative way in that life would change - we wouldn't be able to pick up and go somewhere on a whim and at some point we would probably need to be get up in the middle of the night to pick up something that I'd rather not pick up. I'm sure that list goes on and on. But I think it was time to move past these kinds of unimportant and meaningless sacrifices and have a glimpse of what I'd be gaining. I've always known this to be true but I think my subconscious needed to show it to me in the form of this dream.

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    Created by Brian on Sunday, August 15, 2010 8:37:25 PM
    You're going to love it. But I'm sure you know that.
       
    Created by muchgooder on Tuesday, August 10, 2010 3:51:03 PM
    Lets not get carried away here - me and the boy are going to be making pirate movies when I watch him in December. And drinking beer.
       
    Created by Rebecca on Tuesday, August 10, 2010 1:36:59 PM
    I had tears in my eyes as I read this, and am so happy to be embarking on this adventure with you! We are so lucky to have you as husband and daddy!
       
    Created by Amy on Tuesday, August 10, 2010 1:23:28 PM
    Damn, Buddy...you are gifted and were truly made for blogging! Congratulations to you, for so many, many reasons.
       
    Created by kristen on Tuesday, August 10, 2010 1:17:05 PM
    :) :) :) :) :)
       

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